Look inside yourself,
the place where Love lives
the Love that makes you feel bigger than yourself,
(like Love for your children, your spouse, your pets etc.)
the Love that makes you feel alive,
the Love that makes you feel whole…
Feel this Love:
Let it flow from you
just as it does each time you share it,
but this time stop it before it leaves
and turn it towards yourself,
filling all the places within you:
your cells, your heart, your skin, your mind & soul
with your own powerful Love.
Let this Love you give to others
be the Love you give yourself.
Feel this Love:
Hold the frightened one
the grieving one,
the hurting one,
and tell them gently
what you need to hear,
and let yourself scream,
let out your cries,
curl up and hold yourself in your arms,
all the while Loving Yourself with this great love from within you.
Feel this Love:
Send all of your Love to You.
the same kind of Love
that the sun offers the Earth
as it rises in the morning,
embracing everyone, and everything with its light
beaming hope upon you
and awakening your body, mind and soul to their
Love came knocking one stormy night
I answered, “Can’t you see I’m busy?”
The house is a mess,
There’s clutter everywhere.
I need to get the kids to bed,
And the animals need to be fed.
My husband’s shirts need to be cleaned
I’m really trying not to be mean.
Love said, “No problem.”
“I’ll talk to you soon.”
I said, good-bye and closed the door.
I breathed in a sigh of relief.
No worries or fear
Of what Love might say about my disheveled life
She was gone.
But then the thunder rumbled and the house shook.
And everything came tumbling to the floor.
My eyes filled with tears
And I yelled, “Why?!”
“Don’t you see how hard I try?
I try to keep everything perfect,
And I always seem to fail.
Nothing’s ever in the right place
And now this?
It’s too much for me to do.
So I tried to run out the door,
but the storm blew me back inside.
I fell upon my clutter and began to cry.
And the cascading waterfalls flooded the room.
I had to come up for air.
So I swam as hard as I could
[To just get my head above the surface].
And then it struck me,
Oh why was I so stuck inside my head?
How could I be so worried about my life
that I could leave Love outside for the night?
“I’m sorry,” I yelled!
I’m so sorry I didn’t want you here.
I’m sorry my life is so full of fear.
Please oh, please Love, Come back!!!
I need you so.
I looked out into the abyss.
I couldn’t see a thing.
No sign of Love anywhere.
And then a voice inside my heart,
“Forgive yourself my child,
Let it go.
You are too hard on yourself.
The mess can wait.
All the work will get done.
But you don’t have to do any of this alone.
Please sit down
Open your heart and pray.
Now listen to what I have to say,
I am here.
I am here.
I am here.
I look out the door again,
The sky is full of stars.
The clutter around my feet is gone. And Love, she is here. She’s always been here. She will always stay.
For Love has made her home in You.
Blessings of Light & Love Around you and with you Always, Erin
“LOVE was there for you
before you came into this world. LOVE dwells in you now,
& forever connects you to all LOVE
even after death
because the beating of every heart
vibrates through all eternity. LOVE is endless.
You are dearly, LOVED.”
Where ever you are in your journey of life, may you always know you are LOVED. Nothing can ever separate us from love, not even death. LOVE travels beyond all space and time.
There is a restlessness in our spirits. It is in the air, speaking through the earth and in the heartbeat of people. I’m sure you feel it too. This restlessness is a longing we are communicating to one another as we seek a deeper way to love one another, and to stand strong in the midst of defeats.
Restlessness is a beautiful gift. It awakens your sleeping spirit to become more than you already are. This feeling causes you to stop and notice that being comfortable in the mundane, is not what you were created to be doing. You are so much more, for the world and for yourself. So listen. Yes, listen hard and pay attention to what is happening within yourself. Be still with yourself. Take time to pray and meditate so you can understand the longing in your soul. Let your spirit leap!
Futhermore, restlessness calls you out of yourself and causes you to seek out others. It awakens our need to be in connection with one another and to bring about love and kindness. Our restless spirits seek each other out, and begin to work together to bring about beauty in the brokenness around us and in us. And as loving spirits find each other, the energy of the earth and the air transforms into Divine energy. Do you feel it?
We were not made to just accept life as it is. Each of us has a soul that is always longing for something more. It is this longing that causes us to be restless. And since the deepest essence of who we are is in our soul where Divine Light and Love reside, the force that is greatest in life is LOVE. So as you embrace your own restlessness and attune yourself to the restlessness of others, be still and let LOVE be the force within you that calms all fears and defeats all that is not LOVE. And allow LOVE to lead you forward in all that you do, and all that you imagine.
LONGING for deeper peace and love is the instigator of your restless spirit. LOVE drives you forward so that you do not just settle. It keeps the fire of longing lit so you seek to be more. Because many people, like you are experiencing longing LOVE is joining people together today. LOVE is the light in the world that says, “No matter how dark it may be, I will always be with you, lighting the way for you.”
Therefore, do not become discouraged with life. Do no despair. Do not worry. Do not become consumed by fear. Instead embrace your restless spirit; place your hand on your heart and send yourself love. Breathe in deeply and let the energy of all the LOVE in this world that other restless spirits are sending out fill your soul. Then send this LOVE back out into the world and universe. Open your eyes and see and feel the mystery and magic happening all around you. LOVE conquers. LOVE wins. LOVE blossoms. LOVE connects. LOVE is the eternal promise.
Always allow your restless spirit to awaken you to discover the magic, the mystery and beauty of yourself and life.You are LOVE at work in this world.
Listen to the whisper of the winter as it quietly enters your life today. The silent tip toe of the snow upon your nose or outside your window can easily awaken your heart to a deep felt sense of peace. There is so much gift in nature. Nature blesses us with itself, so that we are able to awaken our spirits through the gifts of our senses and our awareness. And as we awaken deep within our soul we experience blessing.
Today is my best friend of 25 years, 40th birthday. She celebrates her birthday with gratitude in her heart because she has been given the gift of 40 years. (She lost an amazing friend to cancer 2 years ago). She deeply realizes that life is a gift…She reminds me that mine is too…so is yours…
May you too see the gift in your life, as this winter comes upon you. And as each day gets longer and brighter, may you feel more light in your life. May you celebrate your own light, and share love with others. May you recognize, deep within your soul, the absolute amazing blessing you are, and the amazing blessing of your life.
Listen to the whisper of winter…it calls to you. Its silence awakens the peace deep inside of your heart…
You are created with marvelous design. Not only is your body amazing at how it can heal, create and move, but your inner spirit, the true essence of yourself, is simply and uniquely amazing as well! There is no mistake in your creation. Your dreams and deepest longings are evidence of who you are meant to be in this world. So listen to these longings, and follow your dreams. You were brought into this world at this time to share your gifts.
When you ignore your dreams you can easily get stuck in feeling unfulfilled in your life. And as we know, being unfulfilled in life leads to an inner feeling of emptiness. Sometimes we try to fill this emptiness with the business of life, and the routines of life:like going to work because that’s what you do, watching TV, even going for a walk just to move your body; but if you aren’t actually looking at the dreams in your heart, and trying to understand what they mean for you, being unfulfilled can continue daily.
You certainly are not alone on feeling unfulfilled at times, and maybe even daily. I know all these things way too well. That’s why I am writing again today. I am sitting down with my thoughts and sharing them with you. Being a wife and mother are very fulfilling for me, but there is also the deeper part of me…the part that thrives on sharing the spiritual journey of life with others, that I need to tap into again. Sometimes we need to recall where our heart was in the past to know where we are going now. I’m listening again to the calling I had 18 years ago…Listening to the Beloved One, calling me in my heart, and leading me along my path today.
Listen to your inner voice, deep in your heart, the one that is leading you to your own truth. You will find a inner happiness unlike anything you’ve felt before. And if you can’t figure out what is being said to you, listen even more. Try things out. Don’t be afraid to fail, and get back up again. Go on a retreat. Read books about setting your goals. Read the Bible. Search out a success coach. Seek out a trusting friend. Write in a journal. Do something creative. Spend more time outside. Write a daily gratitude list. Do whatever you need to listen to your authentic inner voice.
But most importantly…
DON’T GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS! & KEEP TRUSTING…YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY!
May you too be blessed with hearing the Beloved One calling you in your own heart…leading you to the deep, amazing person you are.
She painted the sky with Love,
for she had found the Beloved One deep inside her
and the Beloved One said,
“Shine your inner light on all those you meet
and fill life with beauty;”
and she did,
and the world Smiled.
Much time has passed since I last wrote here because life was busy, and my primary focus has been my children. But now, the time has come to join you again on this journey of Life, to walk with you along the road, and to discover with you the deeper essence of who each of us is. I’ve been listening more deeply to my voice within, and it has told me I need to write again. I am so happy to be here again!
When you listen to your strong inner voice, the one that is in harmony with your purpose, the world smiles at you because you are creating love: people experience the joy, the peace, the celebration of life in you; and this bright beautiful energy shining forth from you is infectious. The world smiles!
I bless you on your journey today. May you listen to your inner voice, the voice that is the essence of who you are. The Beloved One desires you to be nothing less or you wouldn’t have been created so amazing!
One of the spiritual gifts we have been created with is our imagination. Using our imagination to inspire healing in our bodies is an amazing tool. Take some time to be with your body, and any where you feel pain, illness, discomfort or off balance, take notice. And then begin to focus, and imagine your cells, your tissues, your organs working to bring healing, health, balance and peace within your body.
I have been working more intentionally at getting to know my body, because I have been suffering from dizziness, headaches and tiredness. About 2 months ago I began to try to find a way to get better. I realized what I was feeling wasn’t just a phase. I talked to doctors, and friends, and did my research, but still didn’t really feel well. And then one day about a week ago it dawned on me: I have been forgetting to be in touch with my body. I had forgotten how to listen to my body and learn from it: that when something is off in your body, yes you may be ill, but your body may also be telling you that the way you are living your life may not be healthy for you. In my case I was holding left over grief and every day stress in my head. And it was making me exhausted.
But as soon as I began to make a CHOICE to listen to my body and become aware of why I was not feeling well, day after day, I began to hear my body telling me, it needed me to “Let Go.” I needed to begin to release the emotional stuff I was holding within me, and as soon as I began to offer myself the gift of love and compassion, I began to feel better. This love encouraged me to begin to imagine healing energy, love, light flowing within me and pushing out all that was harming me. I continue to do this each day and thus, day by day am feeling better. I have also chosen to eat well, and learn more about the foods I put in my body, but that’s a story for another day.
So I invite you to be present to your body and to begin to imagine harmony and balance in your body. Be intentional about this. Make it a part of your every day spiritual or mindfulness practice. And see what happens.
The last two afternoons a beautiful Eastern Tiger Swallowtail Butterfly has danced by me while watering my garden. Yesterday, I was filled with a sense of joy, imagining that this beautiful butterfly came by just for me: gifting my eyes with its gentle freedom and beauty. As it danced away, I went back to my plants and forgot about my encounter. Today however, I experienced a sense of blessing and wonder, as we were graced to cross paths again. And thus, I let my gaze linger longer and watched this beautiful creature dance across the open air, moving around freely. And as I watched, I noticed the way the butterfly soars with joy. It fluttered from here to there, and wandered wherever it chose to go. There was nothing stopping the butterfly’s movements. In some ways the way it fluttered by, seemed almost unintentional, as though the butterfly was filled with joy and just absolutely embracing its freedom to fly.
This image of the butterfly embracing its freedom delighted my spirit, and thus, opened my heart to looking deeper into the gift of this image and how it speaks to life. Butterflies are often associated with the symbolism of change. Because of their wonderful metamorphosis from a caterpillar walking along eating leaves, to a beautiful creature who opens its wings to fly, change is the perfect symbol. This second encounter wasn’t just by chance. As I watched this butterfly, my thoughts and feelings began to open and I began to understand that the butterfly’s dance was a way the Divine was inviting me learn.
Life has been bringing with it experiences I, and others, haven’t really chosen to learn from. In the last few months I have had a few different friends who have been going through difficult and unexpected change in their lives, and I also have been recovering from loss and change. And grief is very deeply rooted in all these life experiences. Yet, as the butterfly invites us to discover: one form of dying may lead to another form of living. And although it may be a way of living that we have no road map for, we can still discover delight, beauty and hope in spite of this change.
I imagine sometimes that the caterpillar has no way of knowing that she will become a butterfly. And as her daily life goes on, she knows she must eat, and then somehow within her, she knows to make a chrysalis, and then she transforms into her freedom of flight. And when this gift of flight occurs she is frightened and unsure of her new wings, maybe she is even saddened by the change in her body, but then she opens them and begins to fly, and this change opens her eyes to new discoveries and blessings.
So we too can be like this beautiful butterfly, unsure and feeling saddened by the way our life has transformed, but as we begin to take the next step, say the next word, breathe another breath, we can begin to discover our new path may bring with it new beginnings, and healing. This acceptance of change though comes in time, and for each of us when this time comes may be different. Additionally, we have to be open within ourselves to see the gift in the road ahead of us, because despair and negativity can also keep us stuck where we are. This gift of discovering new ways to be free within ourselves is also a process of healing after the grief. Each time we allow ourselves to awaken to a new day and live after the change is taking a step towards healing, a step towards dancing again, signing again, feeling like you again, etc. And maybe one day like the butterfly you will again feel deep within the joy of being you, and experiencing your life as gift. And maybe like the butterfly, your story, your presence with someone, will also invite them to begin to heal, because they will witness how you have also learned to soar even with all you’ve been through.